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1. Your actual sexual preference is? Straight
2. If you were guy and you were gay who would you do? John Mayer....(hehehe like i would put someone else)
3. If you were a Lesbian who would you do? Thandie Newton, Michelle Rodriguez, Rebecca Romajin Stamos (long story)
4. If you were Bi, name a male and female you would have a threesome with. John Mayer & Thandie Newton
5. Would you do a Tranny who was hot?....hmmm I have no clue
6. Whats more appealing? 2 girls with a guy? 2 guys with 1 girl? 2 girls and a guy
7. Have you ever kissed the same sex in that way before? not yet
8. *warning this one is slightly graphic* Okay if you were gay, prefer? Oral or Penetration? --- and to make things fair you do not have to answer this if you dont want to...
ummm ORAL....penetration sounds so...rough...lol

I got good news from the doctor, about two hours after I posted my last entry. The levels are good and raising the way that they should. I go back in tomorrow to have an ultrasound to find out about how far along I am. Right now we are guessing about 6 weeks, but we'll see.

Thank you to everyone that sent birthdays wishes, sent prayers my way and all yall that shared in my tears. You have no idea how much I appreciate yall.

I am beginning to think I was never meant to have good birthdays. My birthday so far

12:05 am - got to hospital to get blood drawn
12:15 am - get poked by lab tech twice, the second one hurting like hell.
12:20 am - Lab tech get head nurse cause he can't find my veins.
12:30 am - hall ass to work cause I am late
6:00 am - finally get off of work, but soon realizes I locked the damn keys in the car.
7:00 am - Hubby finally comes to rescue me

Right Now - waiting for the doctor to call with good or bad news.

I am scared. I can't even get happy about being pregnant cause the moment I do, thats when the whole thing will come caving in. I keep trying to tell myself that everything will be ok not matter what the doctor says. What happens is meant to be.

But that doesnt make me feel better, that doesnt stop any of the pain I feel. that doesnt stop me from crying.

So now I wait....I have to wait to find out whether or not my levels are high enough, whether or not they are rising the right way. Whether or not I get to be excited about having a baby or upset that I have to terminate the pregnancy.

Happy Fucking Birthday to Me.

Ok Its not my birthday yet...but I wanted to have a semi happy entry where you guys can leave b'day wish....I will post all the lovely cards and fansigns I got later. Thank you everyone that sent them to me. I love you all :)

And sadly I really mean that. I need to blog....I need to let it all out. But I know that alot of people read this so I am setting the rules for this entry now.

Please dont ask me about this, if I talk to you about its one thing, but if i dont say anything dont ask me please.

Please dont IM me about it. I share my screenname with my hubby and my kids at times...so it hard to tell which one of us is online and not everyone in my family knows about the situtation.

Please dont IM any of my other friends about it to see if they know anything about it. It's not fair to them especially since they were asked not to say anything.

Please dont get upset if I didnt/don't talk to you about it....I have enough to worry about, that I dont need someone upset with me because I didnt tell them. I have my reason and you should respect that.

Now if you think you can handle these rules and respect my wishes then read on...if not the don't.

My 3 year old claims she has a boyfriend to my suprise, and his name is ......Boyfriend....lol she is sooo cute.

Ok if you are brave enough to read about my strange but interesting evening....click the link.

I stoled this from Dee who stole it from Janey who stole it from her Jellybean...I have no clue who Jelly bean is...but thank you...lol.

1. First name or nick name: Katrinia or Kitty

2. Were you named after anyone? yup me grandmas

3. Do you wish on stars? always

4. Which finger is your favorite? finger? favorite...for what?....Oh no...perverted mind kicking in so I am gonna skip this one...lol

5. When did you last cry? This morning

6. Do you like your handwriting? nope mine is sloppy

7. What is favorite lunch meat? Turkey!!!

8. Any bad habits? lost of them, but I am not admitting to them...hehehe

9. What's in your CD player right now? Jason Mraz

10. Do you believe in soul mates? Yes I do!!!

11. Are you a daredevil? Hell no...I wish, lol Ok I am a little.

12. Have you ever told a secret you swore not to tell? yes

13. Do looks matter? NO!

14. Have you ever misused a word and it sounded absolutely stupid? All the time

15. Do you think there is a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow? YES....but I also believe in Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, The Easter Bunny and all those folks. :)

16. Do fish have feelings? hehehe i think so

17. Are you trendy? Nope...far from it.

18. How do you release anger? I blow up at some poor unsupecting soul....if I have blow up at you recently...I sowwy.

21. What was your favorite toy as a child? hehehe my little brother

22. What class in school do you think is totally useless? Calculas...who in the hell uses that stuff?

23. Do you have a journal? Yes

24. Do you use sarcasm a lot? like duh...lol

25. Have you ever been in a mosh pit? Hell yeah!!!

26. What do you look for in a boy/girl? Some one that will make me laugh, hold me when i cry, and be my rock when i am not strong enough.

27. What are your nicknames? Kitty, Kitty Kat, Kit Kat, Kat, Kit, Ms. Trina, Tia, Kitty Witty, Trinia, Shuga Momma, Shuga Hefa, Big Breasess,

28. Would you ever bungee jump? HELL FUCK NO!!!

29. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? nope

. 30. Do you think that you're strong? emotional, most of the time...physically I try.

31. What's your favorite ice cream flavor? hmmmm hell i have no clue

32. What is your least favorite food? brussel sprouts

33. ...? wtf?

34. How many wisdom teeth do you have? all of them...i think

35. Are you in love with someone? YES!!!

36. How many people have a crush on you right now? lol you mean like a real crush... ?

37. Who do you miss most right now? Carol, Barb. Rocky and Courtney

38. ? ok its another question mark...lol

39. What are you wearing? t-shirt and jeans

40. What are you listening to right now? John Mayer!!!!

41. What are the last 4 digits of your home phone number? umm?? 1373. What was the last thing you ate? choco milk

43. If you are a crayon, what color would you be? purple

44. How is the weather right now? ok? rain and cold

45. Who is the last person you talked to on the phone? Julie :)

46. First thing you notice about the opposite sex? eyes

47. How are you doing today? tired

48. Favorite drink? tes

49. Favorite alcoholic drink? red wine

50. Favorite sports? HOCKEY!!!

51. Hair color? Black with red streaks

52. Eye color? dark dark brown

53. Do you wear contacts? nope

54. Siblings and their ages: Lisa 18, Jon 26

55. What is your favorite Month? December

56. Favorite food? hmmm mac and cheese

57. Last movies watched? dont remember

58. Favorite day of this year? ooooooh Feb 17th...the day I saw John Mayer!!!!!!

59. Are you too shy to ask someone out? no

60. Scary movies or happy endings? both

61. Summer or Winter? winter

62. Hugs or kisses? kisses

63. Relationships or one-night stands? hehehe not answering that, lol

64. Do you want your friends to write back? sure...stick it in you blog!!!

65. Who is most likely to respond? stole from blog so who knows

66. Who is least likely to respond? read the answer for the question above...lol

67. What books are you reading? nothing now

68. Favorite song? Come Back to Bed by John Mayer

69. Favorite board game? pass out

70. What did you watch on TV last night? will and grace

71. Favorite smells? fresh bread...yumm

72. What is the first thing you think of when you wake up in the morning? Please I work all night...I am going to bed in the mornings....lol

...but I can't get you out of my head.

Ok that is the way I feel about John Mayer atm. I dont know what it is about him, but I can't get him out of my head...that man is so gonna be my husband in my next life ;)...

Speaking of husbands....my hubby in this lifetime is driving me batty...the nut...lol.

I adore him, but he has falling in love with Kat....hehehe not that its a bad thing, cause I can harrass Julie more since Kat will be occupying the hubby...lol. Well I must go rpg :) Bye ;)