Some idiot keeps spamming comments on here and some of the sites I host. I have no clue why but it is driving me crazy. They even add 76 frigging comments about penis enlargements to one of my hostess. Look I know I am a pervert and all, but geez who ever is doing will you get a fucking life and stop wrecking havoc on mine please!

OK enough of my bitching. I will try to be back sometime this week with a new layout...and yet will be John Mayer....why cause I said so...mwhahahahaha.....bye!

I could have sworn I blogged yesterday. I remember typing something out....but it's not here.......hmmm its a mystery I tell you.

Well I dont remember what I posted about but I am kinda all good today. I am gonna try and not to be hostile with folks.....but who knows how long that wil last.....mwhahahaha

I'm not really, no matter how hard I try. I can't magically fix everyone's problems or make everything ok, even when it's something I really really want. Or maybe I could just be a drama queen but who knows. Slowly I feel like I am losing everyone. I doubt it's on purpose but hey it happens.

One of my best friends just called to tell me she is going to jail. She got caught doing something stupid and she has to go back. 2 years....I should be grateful, it could have been 4 or even 7. But I am not. Thats 2 years she has to do away from her kids. She just got recently. She spent almost 7 years the first time.

I feel like it partly my fault. I am the only sane friend she has that doesnt let her do that stuff around me, cause I dont want things like this to happen. But I moved to a different state, worked on taking care of my family. Now it two years until i can help her turn her life around. Maybe next time i will be better in helping her succeed.

My other friend that I have known for years just dropped me from her life complete because I am the only friend she has that wont kiss her ass and tell her she is right all the time. So my honesty has cost our friendship.

And lately I am starting to feel like I am losing friends around me.

I swear I can't win.