I swear I am gonna be pregnant forever. After a week of contractions, mucus stuff (dont ask) and pain up the wazu I havent dialated at all. :( I feel like I am gonna be pregnant forever.

*pats tummy as baby moves*

I know she will come when she is ready, but man I wish she would hurry and come into the world...heathy and happy :)

I will stop whining soon, I think I am just cranky about being in pain, and sore, and most of all restless, but oh well. I'll get over it :)

I was feeling a euphoric and in the mood to do some down to earth blogging, but that was shattered by the asshole who still thinks I need penis pills. Hmmmm I dont have a penis, if i did I would be a freak of science seeing how I am 9 fucking months preggo and a woman, lol....get a life asshole!

Ok what I really wanted to blog about was I am a mom first and foremost, and yes I tend to be motherly with those that I truly care about, alot of my close friends can attest to that. I am always amazed by some great moms out there. Ones that make such great sacrifices for their children. Like Jean Elisson. ( I hope I spelled that right.)

Until tonight I had never really knew who Brook Elisson was, but I wanted to watch the movie based about her because it was one of the last things Christopher Reeves worked on before his death. Like normal preggo me I cried through the whole movie. I was so amazed by this young lady, and at how bright and smart she was. But it was her mom that got to me the most. This woman became her daughter's sole caregiver just so she could go to school. This woman truly has my respect. I can only hope to be that kinda mom.

Speaking of mom's, I have to say mine is quite amazing at times. She takes care of my grandmother twice a day, 7 days a weeks, no questions asked. She works two jobs, is helping raise my brother two kids and working her ass off. I hope my brother realizes what a blessing mom is.

My friend Barb is a great mom/grandmother. I know she is taking on alot right now, but I hope that things work out for the best in the end with her :)

ok I am gonna head to bed, I need sleep :)

LMAO i had a baby shower, and I had no clue I was having one. It was the funniest thing, cause I almost didnt want to go. I was gonna stay home.

I got some adorable stuff....some pink, alot of green, blues and purples. Also apparently I have diapers up the wazu, lmao. I have to hand it to my sister in law, she really throw me off. I kinda suspected she would throw one, but when I talked to her this week, she kinda like made it seem like we were just getting together just to hang out. But I had a great time, got some lovely stuff and some cool comfy night gowns.

Well it's late and I must put the hubby to bed. Night all!

For everyone that was curious, I didnt have the baby yet. All the contractions have stopped... for now. I so want this to be over soon, but this kid has a mind of her own. I can alreadu tell she is gonna be stubborn like her father.

so far we dont have a name yet.....hopefully soon

Night Yall!

Well last night was interesting. I stayed up most of the night because I started having contractions, 4 minutes apart, not to mention Kazzi was up driving me crazy at the same time. I think the contractions where a hint to get my house in order for this baby. I know we arent ready for this baby. I have no crib, no baby stuff. I think this is the first time I havent been ready. Yet I am soooo ready to have her.... ya know what I mean. lol

I guess today will be get my house in order day....sometime today. Then maybe I will feel better about going into labor :)

I have been wanting to rant. I mean really rant. Though this rant my die down before I start.

OK rant number 1.

I really hate this close minded people out here. The ones that are trying to get this measured passed out here. Some bullshit about 1 man 1 woman. Basically it will state a law that will only recogonize marriages between a man and a woman. To me I think that is wrong. Gay and lesbian couples are denied certian rights that Jeff and I take for granted. Then to top it off some of the asshole supports of the bill and the most biggoted sons of bitches. They actually had the nerver to say the inter-racial couples should not get married. That blacks shouldnt have been giving the same rights as whites and all the bullshit.

HELLO I am black and in a inter-racial marriage.

WTF are they on.

Whats wrong with letting them have the same rights. It would mean they can carry their spouse and their children on their insurance policies. Both parents could make choices for a child, and in the event that something happen to one of those parents the kids would know that they could stay with the other.

ok Rant # 2

Telemarkers and all those fucking political phone calls......I have 5 words for you "LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE!!!"

I swear these people call 24/7...get a fucking life and leave me alone.

Rant # 3

The fucking comment and email spammer that thinks that I like to play online poker, wants to see teen porn and needs viagra.

1. I DONT PLAY POKER - not online or off!
2. I DONT WANT TEEN SEX....I am a pervert NOT a pedifile and I can find my on stuff thank you!
3. I am a fucking woman....do i look like i have a dick to need viagra!
4. LEAVE MY FUCKING WEBSITE ALONE! Spam your ass somewhere else!

rant # 4

I think i am ran out of rants, lol. So I will take my preggo hostility and put it to good use....like stuffing my face!

Ciao people!

That's it I am pissed. There people are just driving me crazy!! Why on fucking earth would you want to spam someones comments on Teen sex or online poker. I could give a flying fuck about that stuff. Stop spamming me. And oh yeah I have gotten a wee bit hostile about it, so keep doing it and you will find that you cant comment anymore. And to folks that know me, and for some add reason cant leave me a comment, Tag me and I will check that out for you :).

OK now that I am less pissed, lol I am good, baby is doing good. & more weeks to go. Still no name. Jeff is being a pain about naming her and not telling anyone. I mean use I chose Kazzi's name, but I gave him some say so, plus I let him change the spelling of her name. I think he should atleast do the same, especially to make sure it is a name that I will like too....grrrr hubby's can bee so anal!....ok enough of my ranting. Time to drown my sorrows in John Mayer!