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Yeah well this is just stuff and updates on me.

1. Money
I have none, I need some. I cant pay for the things I need to pay for, and I cant buy the things I want to buy. Thats the end of that!

2. Sickness
I think I am getting sick, or maybe I am preggo again...pray for the first one, lol

3. Tired
I am too tired to do the things I need to do, and well too tired to do things I want to do. It sucks!

4. Uncreative
Apparrently my muse has gone off and gotten drunk without me, leaving me with absolutely no creativity...damn it I need a drink too.

5. People Suck
I found out that my old job the one that I was suppose to have when our company merged with another non-profit org, is hiring once again for the job that they turned me down for. Grrrr on all of them :p.

6. Nana
For thoses of you that dont know, I lost my Nana recently, so I havent quite been the same since then. Part of the reason why I havent been doing much online. For many years that woman was my world, and I am a little upset that my girls didnt get to know her like I knew her. She was such a great woman. I hope she is happy now where ever she is.

You know I had this long list of rants and such that I was gonna do, cause I really wanted to let loose of all my frustration, lol damn it but I forgot it all, lol. Oh well!

Well I got this from Steven, Gem, Quinton and well Julie :)

I know there is something wrong with me, but I am not sure what it is. I have just been feeling horrible lately, and for me that is weird. I hardly get sick. A few of my family members think that it could be [b]that[/b] thing that I will not say because I really dont want to jinx myself. Someone save me!

Sometimes I really do, I need a job, I know I need a job, or atleast one that pays better then what I am getting now. But it's a little hard with 4 kids and one of the is an infant.

Apparently being at home with your kids is the easiest job in the world. I mean you dont get vaction, your break time is when you can get everyone to go to sleep or get them atleast quiet for a moment, (but then somewhere in that queit moment one of them could be doing things like....sticking their sister in the dryer.) on and you dont get paid for it.

Why do men feel that since the make the majority of the money they are allowed to asses to their spouses?

you know what just ignore my rant. I am tired, cranky, upset and pissed off. Let's just say its PMS (putting up with men's shit)

I swear it does. My landlord some how "misplaced" our rent check for this month. Luckily he isnt charging us a fee, but I doubt the asshole is acting looking for the other check. Jeff took alot of hours off from work last week, which means we are going to be really short on cash this week. Which means pay bills or feed the kids. I need a frigging job, one that will let me either be with my kids or let me work from home. I can't afford childcare, but we cant keep living like this, and I doubt jeff will change his hours for me so that I am able to work more. He whines that he can make more in overtime then with me working parttime, but the funny thing is...his ass isnt at work.

I have to go to San Diego, I am not taking any money with me. I have to make sure that he has it to take care of the other kids......uggg what fuck can I do...I think I am just frustrated...so fucking frustrated.

Some of you may have noticed thaat I hadn't been in much of a talking mood lately. My Grandmother passed away this week. I leave next week to fly back home tom Cali for her funeral. This wil be interesting. I havent been home in about 3 years. I am curious to see everyone. I wish Jeff and the girls were going with me, but due to money and work issues they can't. If I ignored anyone I am sorry I just wasn't in the mood for much talking.

There hasnt been much new with me. I haven't worked on any art, but I have been doing some layouts and what not.

I stole a quiz from miss Julie

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I wanna jusr runaway, no kids no problems, just me for one day all by myself.

I have spent the last two night staying up with Jeff because he has been in so much pain from a tooth that needs to come out. I don't sleep until he is atleast comfortable, then I still get up with the girls in morning. He brought me a dozen roses last night cause I had been taking care of him for the last few days.

My grandmother took a turn for the worst. She was admitted into the hospital for kidney and liver failure among other things. My mom says that she will be there for atleast a week. But I am curious if this might be the last time I am able to go home while she is still alive.

I dont know if I can aside from the fact that we have no money what so ever. I am at a complete lost on what to do these days. I am tired, cranky, upset among other things.

Oh well I will eventually get over it. I always do.