I Hate Men!!
OK let me rephrase that. I hate men who just happened to be married to me!
Like it is all my fault that we have no money and live paycheck to paycheck and we cant buy the things that he thinks we need. And it is also my fault that he tends to nickel and dime money that we get to pay off other bills. It is also my fault that he doesnt know what bills have to paid and when, oh yes it is also my fault that we never have money to do anything.
I dont know when he became obsessed with this need to have money all the time. I know we are not rich, but who is nowdays? I would love to be able to pay all the bills at one time and not have to worry about bill collectors, but the reality is we have 4 kids, I work part time and we just dont make enough. On the bright side we dont have to pay for child care (but he doesnt see that)
Maybe he wants something that I cant give him? Or maybe he just wants (or needs his freedom)
You know there is a woman at his job that is proud that him and I have been together for so long. She tells him, "Just stick it out till your youngest daughter is 18, after that I will take you to the Phillipines and get you a young bride."
Wow that just makes me feel oh so special!
So what do I do? What should I do?
I am tired of fighting with him, I am tired of him being pissed at me all the time. I tired of him thinking that money will solve all of our problems.
I dont think he sees the good things we have.
We have 4 beautiful little girls, we have a roof over our heads (it may not belong to us, but it is over our heads) Our girls are happy, they are actually well behave. We dont have some dysfunctional family, for once we are not so far in debt.
Maybe that is just not enough to be happy, too bad I thought it was.
Ignore me I am just ranting about nothing and everything
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