I'm not really, no matter how hard I try. I can't magically fix everyone's problems or make everything ok, even when it's something I really really want. Or maybe I could just be a drama queen but who knows. Slowly I feel like I am losing everyone. I doubt it's on purpose but hey it happens.

One of my best friends just called to tell me she is going to jail. She got caught doing something stupid and she has to go back. 2 years....I should be grateful, it could have been 4 or even 7. But I am not. Thats 2 years she has to do away from her kids. She just got recently. She spent almost 7 years the first time.

I feel like it partly my fault. I am the only sane friend she has that doesnt let her do that stuff around me, cause I dont want things like this to happen. But I moved to a different state, worked on taking care of my family. Now it two years until i can help her turn her life around. Maybe next time i will be better in helping her succeed.

My other friend that I have known for years just dropped me from her life complete because I am the only friend she has that wont kiss her ass and tell her she is right all the time. So my honesty has cost our friendship.

And lately I am starting to feel like I am losing friends around me.

I swear I can't win.